Ramping up for JANE EYRE 2009 forces me to revisit painful memories of last year's production. An actor friend keeps reminding me that although it was a devastating experience for me personally, it was, in his opinion at least, an artistic triumph.
And we really did create something beautiful. But it still brings tears to my eyes sometimes to hear the haunting opening musical sequence from last year's production - listen here - no matter how beautiful something can be, you can never ever escape the pure raw evil of some human beings - and you never know who is going to turn out to be evil.
If only we could get back all the time we waste on unworthy unfeeling degraded deceptive people. If only the human heart wasn't a complete moron. People without true feelings have such an advantage over the rest of us.